Stop pontificating you loser!!

From now.. i wanna stop whingeing and whining... keep pontificating like i'm the only person who knows what is right and wrong... i don't wanna be like Woody Allen in Annie Hall or Manhattan ... (eventhough i wish i would get the girls that he has in those movies) ... everythings about him vex me like hell... he is short..but dating tall girls... he is ugly.. yet the chics that go out with him is drop dead gorgeous (Diane Keaton ok... are you nuts Diane!!!) ... he plays tennis and loves art.. but present himself as a macho man ... and he's amazingly self deprecating.. but on the pretext that he is the most gifted person in the city of New York...

but still... he is a brilliantly cynical species... sometimes I'm wondering how he could come out with such quirky and stupendous idea for of his earlier movies (his recent flicks are so daffy though).. some of my friends say probably he is Jewish (I'm not being prejudice OK)... by being Jewish means clever.. very clever ... or probably because he looks so ugly (what a minger!!) ... so god granted him a gift that a thick but good looking person always wish to have....

But being critical and cynical is better than being ignorance... cause ignorance is the mother of all stupidity.. I prefer to hang out with groups of Woody Allens.. than people who think everything in the chain email they receive, which says late Pope John Paul was a Muslim before was converted to Catholic is true ... or really belive that holy water is coming from a steamed embryo of the nuns...

We are so used of being uncritical.... believe in hearsays... as long as it falls between the walls of our conventional perception and belief... in the boundaries of our convenience ...

The reason is because our society has been too self-centered... could we stop thinking about ourself for a minute??... open our eyes.. there's lot of stuff happening around the world...

We've been spoon fed for a very long time... Since British era, we've been fixed not to look ahead... and it hasn't changed at all till now... our media has continued the vicious stupid circle... that we have a chip in our shoulder.... 1) saying something without thinking.... 2) belittle other people to make us feel happy 3) everything comes from western country is so cool or... all their cultural export is evil ...

What a sad sad situation ...

An ode to the CUNT SOCIETY!!

Do you know there're people who love to make your life miserable? Who just want you to feel so small and worthless?They always think they are the cleverest... and other people are wrong ... they can just scream at you out of blue... without any specific reason ....and for them... what a cathartic experience to see you crying before their eyes because you can't endure all the haranguing and lashing...

And after that, they will proudly tell the whole world that they have demoralized you in front of other people, and how good they feel.

These is not a collge thingy guys... this is an adult business...real people ... not kids .. they eat.. they pee and poo.. and they go to work... and have friends...and some of them have a family (wonder how)... the only difference is that they love to see other people suffer.

I know you wanna say this... and let say is together...THEY ARE INDEED A REAL CUNT!! The mother of all cunt!! I would love to ask god why this type of people is being allowed to put their foot in his holy soil... I'm not being blasphemous mate... just curious... i did ask my mom about that ...and she gives me a very fun answer.... she says people like them have their part to play in this life ... they are like asistance to SATAN... they just couldn't see a good hearted and nice person... the more willing you're... the more likely you will be their next victim

I've met people like this before... one is my previous boss... i heard he is now suffering from heart attack... another one is my landlord when i was in the UK... and he's now living alone in a basement of his 3 storey-house with his dog for the past 20 years...

But i didn't know there is one place where i could find most of them together....in one group...congregating every (working) day...it's like the society of CUNT ... each of them is competing who can be the super cunt ... being arrogant, showing an ocean size ego and super size attitude is the coolest thing to have and do...

and their victim is the newcomers .... young...naive... fresh from college... probably a bit thick ... and know nothing about the working world... The day they met this kind of person... they will grill him/her like nobody's business ... and the day this newcomer succumb to the pressure .. what an achievement for them.. and if you still be able to withstand all that... they will tenaciously try against you again and again...

The only thing that make them a bit mellow is if you conform to whatever they say... just do and follow what they want.... and never raise your voice and make a clever statement in front of them... then you might be spared a couple of humiliation moments

I'm wondering how and why they become like this...

I didn't blame these SUPER CUNT group at all.. i really pity them actually... i wish i could do something to help them from straying away to the land of SATAN ... My mom says the only panacea is to read a lot of Quran.. and never miss your pray... which i doubt they could do that (cause i couldn't stick to that too.. hikkk)

My super mom also says they are actually very very insecure... they are living in their own world... without knowing that there are more important things happen outside their hollow brain.... they have succumb to the pressure long time ago....and it's rotting inside them.... the pressure in which they had been treated very (harshly) before... so to make things equal.... they do the same thing to a newcomers..

They might appear strong outside... but they are very fragile inside... like a child.. wanting to be heard and seen... they would do anything so they could be noticed... and that's why they are acting that way...

They've lost their self esteemed...cause it has been robbed and crushed before... and they just don't have the courage and nerve to put it back together .... they thought by making other people suffer... they might find back their own self... alas... things are getting worst for them..

So the only thing that me and you could do is to keep ourself self strong... never become one of them... and for me, eventhough i have to be in their group and mingle around with them almost every day in my life now... i have to keep being myself... be nice , polite, patient and respectful to any human being that i meet.. losing my temper would be the last thing that i would resort to... never!!!!...what is the need to create all the hostility?... You might have a bad experience in life before... but i don't need to stoop so low by throwing my insecurity to other people just to make me feel better...

This CUNT SOCIETY will always exist... they are like an epidemic... highly contagious... some of them will stay like that forever ... they thought they are ever clever and powerful...and will be living forever and ever... they might forget that the almighty is looking at them from the below... what a finalironyoflife.

Me blogging!!

Me blogging! that's really realy unexpectedlyunbelievable... totally the final irony of life... it's like licking my own saliva... My own cynical self always says those who involve in blogging have nothing better to do, than needing an outlets to channellise their frustation in life... actually..that's me....and now, I'm one of you guys ...

ok.. enough those self-deprecating... (people who self-deprecate themselve - just wanna feel better, n want other people to praise them... a fucking cunning loser...hikkk...see...I'm deprecating myself again!!!)

Actually all this blogging nonsense started because of my love for MOVIES!!! ..and Yasmin Ahmad... yes Yasmin you are the culprit!

Last night after watching the ultra amazing "The King of Comedy" from the super duper director Martin Scosese, I almost went bonkers because i need someone to talk to... and share with me about the greatness of the movie .. this is not the first time i'm feeling like this... everytime after finished watching a brilliant movie (like One flew over the coockoo's nest, Vera Drake or Akiro Kurosawa's Run), i just couldn't help myself but wanting to quit my job the next day and become a director... and i just couldn't sleep the whole night... keep tossing and turning on my bed... hoping that Meryl Streep and Robert De Niro appear in front of me so i could direct them there and then.

and After watching The King of Comedy.. as well said before I just couldn't sleep... suddenly the name Yasmin Ahmad poped up from my head... i remembered going to her workshop 2 months ago on "understanding cinema" at Top Hat restaurant... and also remembered she said about how she loves movies and how she could talk about it again and again...

so I get off from my bed ... switched on my laptop.... getting through the interenet (the painfully slow 1515) and googled her name .. and it turns out that she has a website...and it is a blog!.. Yasminthestoryteller... Yasmin Ahmad.. and a Blog!!!... that sounds so lame!!!

But after going through the whole site (or should i say blog)...what a blessing experience!!... It's all about movie... her most recent post is about voting the greatest love story of all... On the lists are "Annie Hall", "Talk To Her", "The Apartment", "As good as it gets" to name a few... imagine how could you make a choice with all those masterpiece in one list!!!...

but in the end, i voted for the sweeping epic "The English Patient" ... the ultra slow yet ludicrously absorbing and depressing film ... a bona fide love story... sensual and deeply moving, which ended in tragedy.

On that moment i knew that i've to open my own blog... and start my nonsense rambling about movies and music... cause that's probably the only things that'll make me sleep well at night.. writing about things that've become part of my life for so long..

I still couldn't sleep for the whole night...i got so excited about all this blog thingy... i went straight to work the next morning... went out for my assingnment and totally fucked up on my story... My boss screamed at me like there's no tommorrow .... in front of other people .... and asked me to stay home if i don't want to do my job seriously ...

Maybe he is not that angry at my lousy reporting... only felt disgusted at my Zombie look alike face... with my eye bag so black.. It's look like I'm wearing a mascara ...

My colleagues are so confused that I'm still able to smile and put my "toyo" face ...after getting the humiliation trophy of the month ... (they didn't know how i really wanted to throw a stack of VCD Gila-gila pengantin and Senario the Movie at my boss's face).

Anyway, no worries...there's more to live than just work... My DVD collections that i haven't seen yet, this month PREMIERE magazine which i haven't got a chance to read at all.... and my newly created blog ... finalironyoflife@blogger.com.... what a loser :)